Thursday, February 11, 2010

I love to torture myself

I just caught the end of a documentary on TLC about a young couple taking methadone in order to get off heroin during their pregnancy. Like a train wreck, I could not look away. Baby immediately went to NICU (obviously) and was given morphine to help her with withdrawal symptoms.

The mom was appropriately upset about her baby having to stay in NICU and said:

"If I start to think about how long 4 weeks is, it's a long time."

The baby went home after 5 weeks.

If she thinks 5 weeks is a long time to be separated from her baby, she should try forever. Yeah, it's great the mom got off heroin and started on methadone and stuff, but seriously. SERIOUSLY. I'm just having an It's Not Fair Pity Party for a moment. Indulge me.


  1. Consider yourself indulged. It burns my ass that women who abuse drugs and don't take care of themselves during pregnancy get to take home their babies when there are those of us who stuggled to conceive, followed every doctor's order, took our vitamins, stopped smoking, never drank or used drugs and our babies died. How is that fair? Hugs

  2. It isn't fair. It makes me sick. It shouldn't be like this.

    Not watching might have been more sensible, but I wouldn't have been able to stop either.

    Thinking of you.

  3. I watched the same documentary. While I was pregnant, I was super aware of eating right, taking my vitamins, and educating myself about birth and being healthy. My husband and I read every book about natural birth and pregnancy. I was at my healthiest during my pregnancy and I thought that would guarantee a healthy bouncy baby. Turns out I was wrong and it makes me angry to see women who barely take care of themselves birth generally healthy babies. Not that these women don't deserve healthy babies...just really sucks that we couldn't have it as well.