Chris and I met at the perinatologist's office yesterday. I was terrified; he looked pale and frightened. We compared stories of our drives over--we both felt like we could pass out at any moment. The anxiety level was sky high. It didn't help that the perinatologist's office is INSIDE the hospital where Addison was born.
After a 45-minute wait, it was our turn. I recognized the tech from our appointments when I was pregnant with Addison and we started chatting. She started to remember us as well. The doctor certainly acted as if he knew who we were. He was kind, compassionate, and at the end of the appointment told me to call him anytime. And I believed he meant it.
But what I really want to write about is the total and utter RELIEF that I now feel. What an emotionally exhausting visit! The nuchal translucency result looked good--likely no Down's. Anatomically, the doctor said everything looked normal. The blood results for other issues will be back in a week or so. The subchorionic hemorrhage was obviously still there, big, looming, scary...but he seemed certain it would resolve with time. And he got the money shot. He thinks we're having a boy. We are thrilled. We know that nothing is 100%, nothing is totally certain, I will never feel completely confident that we're brining home a healthy child in March. But I am ready to feel cautiously optimistic. I'm ready to HOPE. And for me, that's a really big deal.
PS: Thank you all for your loving, supportive comments. It really touches me to know that you are there are rooting for me.
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So glad things are looking good at this stage. I remember feeling sick before my early scans and cried all the way through my 12 week one.
ReplyDeleteHang onto that hope. xx
I couldn't be happier...bless your sweet baby boy's strong beautiful heart.
ReplyDeleteOh Rebecca I'm so glad to hear you had a good appointment today and are feeling not only relief but hope! Praying that things continue smoothly and you have that precious baby in March!
ReplyDeletei'm glad everything is looking good and hope for you that everything remains that way.
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I'm so glad to hear the visit went well! Here's to hoping for the most wonderful, uneventful rest of your pregnancy and birth!
ReplyDeleteFaith, Hope and Love are 3 wonderful things and you have all three.
ReplyDeleteSo glad everything is looking ok!! Hang on in there xx
ReplyDeletejust wondered how things are going. i hope all is still well.
ReplyDeleteBeen thinking about you alot...I know Addison's first birthday was Thursday. I'm terrified of how I will feel on Drew's birthday and the days following that were his entire little life. You and your entire family are in my heart and thoughts this week and always.
ReplyDeletejust checking in... you haven't posted for a while. hope you have a good thanksgiving with your family.
ReplyDeleteI'm also thinking about you. Hope all is well.
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